3/5/10

Yesterday was a long day of waiting for the neurologist. They weren't able to give me a time that she would be there, and she didn't come until 4:30. After the news that we heard the day before, it made the anticipation even worse. She looked Brody and the MRI over and checked all his reflexes. All this waiting and she couldn't give us any information we hadn't already heard. She said the MRI doesn't look good, but physically he did everything he should be doing. I asked her what that chances are that he will have problems when he gets older. She said it's a much higher chance that he will have a disability, than not having one. She said there's no way to know at this point what the damage is going to affect, so we will just have to wait and see. Do you know how hard that is for a parent to do? There's no test or any way to have a clue what the future holds for our son. Instead we have to wait until he begins reaching milestones, and see if he is behind other children. Basically the MRI results are right in the middle. They aren't horrible, but are far from good. That's why it is so hard to get any answers. She said that one of the first real tests is how he does with oral feedings. Today I began attempting to breastfeed him. He did very good for a premature baby. He was able to latch on a few times, but only for a short period. He got very tired quickly because it's hard for him to go through all the motions, and breathe at the same time. I am very confident that he will continue improving, and master it in a few short days. He has surprised so many people this far, we are hoping that he will prove the doctors wrong!